even though I’ve been through a lot of ish, and a lot of emotional downs. even though fights between me and them, they never seem to hesitate on supporting me and to make me feel better. I am truly greatful for my parents. i can’t wait for 2011. :)
I don’t need to sit here and think about a topic to impress people. I don’t need to use big vocabulary. I post when there’s something on my mind that I need to let out. Not something I just made up after sitting for 20 minutes, trying to create a deep paragraph. & I’m happy with the 1 note I get on it because that means that the person can relate to how I really feel.
I vent from the heart, no bullshit stories. That’s how it’s always been.
So many people have trust issues. It’s understandable, most people have been through some bullshit and don’t want to feel that way again. With me, I feel that trust is something everyone deserves, especially if they haven’t ever given you reason not to trust them. Trust is a luxury and luxurious things need work in order to keep ‘em. You can’t fuck off n sit on the couch and have a benz show up in the driveway, no. You gotta work and buy the mothafucka. Same with trust. You gotta work in order to keep it & have it. Everyone has my trust once I meet them, they’ve never given me reason not to trust them. Given though, the smallest thing can break my trust. It’s not hard to keep someones trust, be honest, communicate, whats the point in lying?? Everyone appreciates honesty.
A man sometimes questions what are his reasons for his jealousy if he has any. This emotion that has one feel weak and enraged over something they don’t have any control over. What makes someone jealous ? Because someone has or gets what another desires ? But isn’t that being selfish ? I suppose you can say everyone’s a little selfish at times including myself.
I was given 5 fingers for a reason. My pinky is for my best friends and our promises that will never be broken, my ring finger is for marriage and for proof that we’ll be together forever, my middle finger is for that person that pushes me too far and to show them how I feel, my pointer finger is to silence them, to savor the moment, my thumb is for everyone, to let them know that I’m gonna be okay, no matter what.
At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It’s not like you’re giving up, and shouldn't try. It’s just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours would eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.
Ever wonder why your parents doesn’t give you permission to go out with your friends? When you ask them, “Mommy, Daddy, Can I go out with my friends?” Then they automatically say “NO.”? Then they don’t give you a reason why they said no? Then suddenly, all of your hopes and your excitement goes…
No matter how hard the problem is or how much bullshit, lies, and stress that’s going through your mind. Never lose your hope and never stop fighting. Because no one’s going to help you. You gotta help yourself by knowing you can fight through it. The adversities are going to get heavier if you think you can’t solve them. No further